Yaasss, bitch I’m forever bitter. With all the things that were wrong in season 4 I held on hope that I would get a dark!Bonnie storyline which is why I was never quite able to let go of Shennett as a ship. They were like my Bonkai before Bonkai was a thing in that he showed her the dark facets of her self and helped her hone them.

Of course, that storyline went into the nomans land of potential, Shane’s killed off and Bonnie soon followed and all hope was lost until Bonkai–and it was even better than before.

And then it was more devastating than before because here we have these two evenly matched powerful characters and we couldn’t even get hate sex 😭😭😭.

But yes give me that version of the show where Bonnie and Kai are aligned together against the MFG, where they have the tension of 7×21??? the huntress storyline, and even the moral alignments of that episode because that was one of the very few times they didn’t make her the bad guy for going against the main characters. Bonnie eventually breaks free and then actually goes to find herself like said she was when she died at the end if season 4 and then essentially what happens in the tags of my “Bonnie’s Alternate Wardrobe Season 5” post.

At first Bonnie would be apprehensive. While she understood the sentiment she was always conditioned to just let things go, bad thing always happen when she held a grudge. But then Kai happened taught her to be selfish, made her realize that she deserved retribution.

She nearly killed Klaus once, but she was stopped by her friends. She nearly killed Damon once but she stopped by her friends too. There’s no one there to stop her now.

While sex with Kai is really really hot, it’s also really really inconvenient. Every time they fucked there was always the probability of death, she kept a weapon nearby just in case while they were in 1994, but death from the elements, it was almost as though the universe was trying to keep them apart. She almost broke it off a few times, she couldn’t in good conscience put that many lives at risk, but she always succumbed, he was her weakness. They eventually came to compromise, staying in sparsely populated areas, but his impulsiveness was sure to be the death of someone.

It’s why they’re so attuned to each other ALWAYS. He senses her the moment she pops up in to his prison world and she feels him the moment she’s there too. She was the first to feel when he got out of 1903, and knew automatically that he escaped hell despite 2 other people getting out along with him. They were made for each other.

Elena: I can’t believe you brought him here. You know he tortured me right?

Bonnie: And Damon ripped out my throat and yet you brought him anyway. We all got issues, at least I’m honest with mine.

Caroline: That’s not fair Bon-

Kai: I’m sorry, who is this? And how is she relevant when I’ve never met her in my life.

Stefan: Hey man, watch it.

Kai: Stefon! Man I’ve heard a lot about you, mostly through Damon. I see what he meant about the brooding thing. Does it get hard making that same grumpy face.

Damon: Hey the only one who can pick on my brother is me.

Kai: We know and you do it I so well.

Bonnie: Come on, Kai, let’s go get a drink. I hear it’s an open bar.

*Bonnie and Kai saunter off together leaving her “friends” the sour faces*

 This is what she last saw him wearing:

This is what he was wearing when he tried to apologize:

which is the exact same as this:

If her subconscious thought he escaped wouldn’t he be wearing what she last saw him in? I wouldn’t exactly say she felt guilty for leaving him there but I know it means something that while he’s guilt tripping her in her dream he’s wearing the same thing he was when he was asking her for a chance.